Why Am I Here?

 

Oonu padaamaan ku doiti?

I have been praying and hoping and(taking actions; wrongly?) so hence I should have ,by now, or yesterday even, a certain answer to, “Why am I here, what is my purpose in this world?”

Instead,  any glimpse of a clue is dimming out and slipping away. I don’t know where I am in my life.  Is there anything else yet to be unveiled that is life-changing in a non threatening manner? I want to cast everything to the highest power in heavens. I am offloading. Leaning on my own understanding has only gotten me bogged down with more questions to say the least.  So to the Highest of Power take it, take everything off my shoulders, off my back. I can’t do it anymore. Baggage..I am sending you where you will be  unwrapped much better.

 May I add: 1) Like making you feel weak to the bones

Translate to Kadazan: Miaga popohomi do tuhang

 Call it crazy, my environment, that is.  I have been trying to repel cigarette smoke from my realm for  a very long time. Nope it is still ‘smoking‘ up my mind.  I found my blog today because of cigarette smoke. It’s driving me crazy. There is this one individual who doesn’t understand that others have the right to breathe in clean air. It’s not because of the pandemic. I am tired of putting up with anyone who feels so entitled to keep pushing unhealthy habits.

It’s making me a hater. I keep running into the same kind. I need to tune in to a suitable frequency.